to (here comes the kid in me) be some type of secret agent that goes on secret dangerous mission with a secret identity with secret cool weapons. Shit even my breakfast would be super secret. I always wondered though would I be able to do those action movie type things. Im pretty sure everyone has. Hmm Im very confident in my psychological perception. My endurance is awesome ( my clumsiness, bad luck, and persistence has proven that). Im very good at evading. Almost untouchable in snowball fights and dodgeball heheheh. And I have some knowledge of weapons due to my dad obsessions with them. Also the sense of danger excites me alot. (maybe i have problems?). But i imagine myself thinking Im so cool woopin bad guy ass then all of a sudden a random stray bullet hits me and i go bleh X_X with out any awesome sacrafice or catch phrase. OoO i know a good one…as Im laying down in the arms of my comrade with little time to spare im gonna be all like in a gasping breath…” I hope heaven has a room for badasses (puts on shades) because my ass is hurtin like a motherfucker”

I wish we can keep eating without getting full. Like we all have this dark hole in our stomach that takes the food to another dimension but we still get the satisfaction of being content. Life would be grand

Ok this dream scared the shit out of me. Im walking with a group of people during the afternoon when all of a sudden these weird shockwaves started appearing randomly in the sky. Suddenly the ground starts shaking violently and this huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuge ass tsunami appears. At this point of I am beyond freaking out, All of a fuckin sudden this huge shark as big as the empire state building comes out of it eating everything in sight. I said to myself “fuck that” and forcefully woke myself up. ….That shark though…

You’ll have friends who will make you happy, sad, scared, lonely, in love, laugh, angry and every other emotion in the dictionary. You’ll have friends who made a bigger difference than others, and those who made little difference. You’ll have friends who will make obstacles for you, and those who will ease everything out for you. You’ll have friends you want to to fight, and those who you want to fight for. You’ll have friends who will leave one day, and those who will stay forever. You’ll even have friends who smell good and those who don’t. I think its cool that Each friendship brings something new to the the table. You’ll always gain something, doesn’t matter what it is. Those will be connections that will last forever no matter what happens. Its like an RPG game. The more people you meet or the stronger the relationship becomes the more you find out what kind of person you are (leveling up). Not saying that you NEED more friends than you already have, that’s not the case at all. You can have only five friends and still get what you can get from 100 friends. The changes in yourself maybe be noticeable or not noticeable at all. That’s the fun/cool part. It’s a blessing to have bonds like that, some people in the world probably don’t have any at all. No matter how happy I am with a friend or how far I feel from them, I always keep them in my heart. Though it may not seem like it at all to people here and there, I never give up on my friends if they let me. I mean thats what friends are for, duh. But if you so much as touch my food at my hungriest point then we’re gonna have a fucking problem.

I have this bad habit of going over my body’s limit in an unhealthy way. I mean idunno if its unhealthy, but I push myself to points where I cant stand straight. Lifting/exercising is a given, pretty sure that’s unhealthy. Lets see, a better example would be skateboarding. If im doing something down a set of stairs and continuously bailing, I keep doing it over and over and over till I get it. Which always puts me in bad shape in a good way. Or this one time I was at this place called adventure land where you climb obstacles on trees as tall as buildings. It had at least 8 levels of difficulty, and I went directly to the 2nd hardest one. If you were too slip or miss an obstacle you would fall. I made a goal not to fall no matter what, which would mean if my muscles were to give out during an obstacle I would push myself so I wouldnt lose my own bet. I think in the moment Im just curious of how far I can go with my body and what I can do, or maybe its the fact that I bet on myself. Hmmm. I mean come on, when the zombie apocalypse happens you’re gonna wanna know your body’s limits.

Had a dream I was a witness to a big robbery by this young but dangerous gang. I followed them to their hideout in attempt to rat them out to the police and give their location. Unfortunately I was caught and was about to be killed but with my quick thinking I blurted out without hesitation that I wanted to join their gang to avoid getting myself murked. I proved to them I was able to do what they do and i was recruited and given alot of money as a gift. On my first day…haha…first day of being a gangster we were attacked by the rival enemy and other wild stuff. I remember stopping to pee in a bush during the shoot out.

Don’t reach your limit, go beyond it.

Kinda got jealous seeing all my friends pictures with their moms today. Unfortunately I didn’t get to see my mom today, I really wanted to treat her out. I was kinda bummed everywhere I went today. I was separated from her 7 years ago and she lives quite far and has transportation issues a lot so I don’t see her often at all. I do miss having her around, she the sweetest person to me, and I swear she smiles and cries at all my small accomplishments even if it isn’t a big deal at all haha. But it makes me feel awesome! Its all good though, Ill definitely treat her out the next time I see her as if it were still mothers anyway! *determined look with finger pointing randomly in the sky*

Man I have a lot of friends who live quite distantly enough that visiting them daily would be a hassle. Many of them I havent seen for a year or two but we always planned to hang out when we got the chance. Though one of them is moving very soon and I still might not get the chance to see that person before they leave. Thats not cool at all.

It makes me cringe when people tell me they dont have any hobbies or interest they want to get into. I tend to think they will become future murders, terrorist, rapist and all that whack shit. I mean cmon…what do you do in your spare time? Not that it matters to me, but I just couldnt imagine myself just…..sitting there. Man not cool.